I work 9am-5:30pm five days a week. I clock in, put my personal business aside, and work hard to pay my bills. I try to ignore the constant thoughts of marketing and new equipment to put the proper effort into my daily occupation. This also means that every bit of my energy I put into photography comes from the little bit that is left after a forty hour work week. It's difficult and often not one bit of fun. There are many times when I don't want to go home from work, where I sit in front of a computer all day, and sit in front of my laptop to write blog posts like this one.
If there is anything I envy about many of the creatives that I know, it is that they are able to do what they love full time. I am not saying it is easier, I still get a little nervous when I think of the day that I quite my day job and become a full time photographer (this will be years down the road). I am a person who strives to excel and continuously improve, however there is something to be said about a steady income. A large part of owning your own business is the stress of uncertainty and the financial unknown.
Even though the daunting financial strain of my photography being my only income makes me nervous, the other side of the coin offers benefits I could never receive from anyone else. That is working at my pace, on my time, and being fully responsible for the success or failure of what I do. I truly enjoy independence and freedom in everything I do. The idea of going to work and not worrying about anyone's opinion besides my clients and my own is amazing to me. I don't reject authority figures, I just am a strong person that I believe will stand on her own two feet well. I also have seen my business grow exponentially while I am unable to give it my full attention. I can only imagine the growth opportunities that will be there when I put all of my energy into my passion. Until then, however, I will continue to type away on my down time, sleep a little less than I probably should, and lay the ground work for the future of Haley Katherine Photography. I know I am not the only person going through this. If this is also you, remember that you can only do so much, but you are making a difference. Never stop learning about your craft, perfecting your work, and working towards whatever end goal you have set for yourself. Even if nobody else does, I believe in you.